I have been praying for something personal for almost six years now. I have cried to God about it, pleaded week in and out for it, and desperately sought God about it. And four months ago, I prayed that it would happen in December. I have two close friends and an accountability partner who know about this specific prayer, and I am grateful that they also prayed for me.
But no, it did not happen in December. I was even hoping for it until the night of December 31. But no, it did not happen.
Was it frustrating? Of course! But here I am, even after five years and nine months, still praying and hoping for it; giving it up in prayer and holding on to God’s promise that He will provide it to me in His time. No matter how frustrating or discouraging it may be to have to wait a little more, I will still continue to wait on the Lord for it (according to His grace) because it is worth waiting on the Lord for.
Waiting can be hard and frustrating. Whether it is waiting for a job promotion, graduation day, marriage, healing, having a child or as simple as waiting for your food in the restaurant when you are already so hungry or waiting in line when you are already running late. Waiting can be hard and frustrating especially in a generation where things are so fast paced, high-tech.
But waiting is good for us. God intends waiting for our good. It builds our character. It also helps us understand better God’s sovereignty, protection and provision. Personally, at some point, my waiting season had led me to realize that what I’ve been praying for became more important than the One I am seeking to. God used waiting to reveal and transform the motives of my heart.
Many people in the Bible went through waiting. Noah looked like a fool, building an ark on top of a mountain while waiting on God. Joseph waited 13 years, suffering through countless trials and tribulations. David waited 15 years before becoming king. Abraham waited 25 years before God’s fulfillment of the promise of a son. Moses waited 40 years with Pharaoh and 40 years in the wilderness. Jesus waited 30 years before starting His ministry.
God was working in their waiting. They were growing in their waiting, too.
I also realized that in our seasons of waiting, the Lord provides encouragement and wisdom for it. An amazing thing happened recently. Two Sunday before Christmas, God used our pastor to encourage me. He shared to the congregation a topic about waiting, and I felt like crying during the first fifteen minutes (but of course, I couldn’t do that hahaha). His message stung me from all sides.
I wait for the Lord more than watchmen wait for the morning, more than watchmen wait for the morning. – Psalm 130:6
MORE than watchmen who wait for the morning. Repeated twice.
Watchmen are guards who would stand upon the walls of their city and in the towers and lookout upon the land. They are excited to see the sun rise because it marks their end of shift; the fulfilment of their roles for that night. And the reason why watchmen wait for the morning is because they believe it will come. They are so sure about it.
Thus, the only reason we can be able to wait for God’s will or the fulfilment of God’s promise to us is because we believe that He will and can. So even in times when it seems so unfair and that the agony of waiting is painful, we can believe that God never fails and that He is faithful in keeping His promises.
I am thankful that God is making me wait. I am sure that in the future, when I look back to this moment, I will realize that He intended this for my good. God intends this waiting for my good because He is good.
A famous quote says, “Good things come to those who wait.” But personally, I think that greater things come to those who wait on the Lord.